Thursday, October 15, 2009
My mindset
So I have come to the conclusion that I am probably going to be single for a long time. I have had the worst luck with men. I'm sure it's because I date the wrong men though. Case in point, my daughters father. He's young and not ready to settle down with one person. He still has this young man mentality of dating as many as people as he possibly can, some at the same time. I kinda stupidly hoped that after our daughter was born that he and I would be together but it hasn't worked out that way so far. The last time we talked about "us" he told me that while he knows that I love him , that I'm not in love with him. I really don't know what to say to that. It's kinda true. I do love him and want this to work but I've been hurt so much in the past, even by him, that I'm afraid of being in love again. I don't know how to trust anymore. And that is sad. I'm 31, a single mom, with no prospects of anyone to date in my immediate future and I'm afraid to trust anyone else with my heart. Being a single mom is gonna make it that much harder to find anyone to date. I guess I didn't really think things all the way through last year. I kinda hate my life right now.
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